Sunday, November 16, 2014

You may say I am a dreamer

The morning that woke me up
With the caress of a lover
Gentle .. yet bold the touch of first rays
Awakening my senses out of the cover

You may say I am a dreamer
Yet my eyes could see it all
Drooped down to capture it
Before the moments could fall

The softness of the breeze against my skin
The sudden chill folding me in its arm
Moan escaped my lips
And dewdrops enchanted me with their charm

Warm smell of sunshine
Mixed with a heady scent of coffee
Warming my cold cold hands was

A hot cup of black liquid glossy

 Enraptured by the simple joys of life
I stood still... couldn't find a fault
A single drop of wetness touched them
And my lips tasted salt



What for?

Yes.. this is a question I always ask of myself and other.. What for? Why? The curious me is so hard to suppress :). 

Life is such a journey of self discovery.. atleast I learn one thing about myself on a daily basis which astonishes me... which I had never thought about.. which had not appealed to me earlier.. which I had never done before.. and I feel ... expanse.

I am unable to put these feelings into words but the possibility of a person is so limitless that it astonishes me. I wonder.. I feel like a kid for whom everything is a sight to behold.. a sense of wonder envelopes me when I look at anything or anyone... I feel immensely proud  to be a human being.. part of the the race which has achieved so much.. collectively.. I feel humble for being so ignorant that I do not know even 1% of what lies within this world.. I feel warm for being able to love people around me.. I feel strong for being able to defend my values.. I feel gratitude for being given this life which I wish to be deserving when I die.

"What for" is a question that is a huge part of my value. I might not have the capacity to understand all the answers but I am sure the answers are there. It always is.. it's just a matter of finding it. No action of mine is taken without this question.. I might be wrong in looking at the answer or deciphering it.. but I do not live by default.. That is how I choose to live.. no matter what the price.. and nothing gives me more satisfaction than getting something for which I have paid the price already.. feels deserving.

I know no two people share exact same set of values.. but there are people who understand this difference and respect it.. this again is a value. Those are the people I love.. I respect .. I admire.. I adore.. For me, love is not unconditional.. it is not without exchange of values and mutual respect.. I can not have a satisfying exchange with even a stranger unless we share some set of connection... I guess it is same for everyone.. though not many people identify it or accept it.

This post is so random in structure that probably only people who know me well enough will be able to connect the dots.. yes.. randomness is beautiful.. Life is beautiful.. Love is beautiful.. People are beautiful.. All you need is courage to never accept something without "What for". :)

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Ephemeral





Open your eyes to the carpet of green

To the dews clinging with hope and sublime
To the birds songs that carries through the wind
To the smell of a new morning through time

It is nothing but Ethereal..
To the soul that despairs
To the eyes which can't see beyond
To the heart which aches

Open up sweetheart.. Open your soul
Drink your fill of love and hope
Coz nothing can be more ephemeral
Live up all the while..

Friday, November 7, 2014

My Love

The feeling grows in me
Like a child taking shape
In the womb of my desires
Decorated in sublime drape
Its the feeling of love and warmth
I feel for my existence true
The existence which is defined
by us and not I or you
The feeling is all encomapssing
And Love grows around us
The beauty of sunshine after winter
and sweet nothings melting in hush
I love you my love
Is the only thing I can say
and not to just you baby
For the world, Its now the only way

Eternal Flame of Love

The Eternal Flame of Love
burns like a the passion of a wild fire
yet the uncertainties of life
that spread on a misty night
the rain that follows
could douse the fire
yet it survives
shielding itself from the sheltering
branches of the overlooking tree
the flame of love lives on
in our hearts and lives
let us pledge to live with it
through the sands of time
i will be yours and you will be mine
we shall live in peace so divine
that when the day breaks and sun shines
the flame of love would burn till the end of time

To be or not to Be

An eternal question asked, an innocent curiosity
With hopes and fears floating alongside
With longing and pain side by side
To be or not to be….

The prayers will be answered, the wishes be fulfilled
The hearts knows not but hopes always
The journey shall starts together … beautiful and love filled
Hand in hand forever

Faith I have in my feeling and my love
Faith I have in my sweetheart and my life
I fear though the times and twists
The distance and the parting

I love him with all my heart
And my soul bared before him
All I ask is Will you be mine..
And yes.. to be or not to be..

Eternally Yours

The time has come too soon
It’s a dark and rainy day
I will leave tonight sweetheart
And I will be gone my way.

Remember the smiles we shared,
The bridges that we crossed together
Time was swept away by fate
As lightly as a bird’s feather

Our souls will be on fire forever
With desires that have been burning inside
To ashes it might turn everyday and night
But with each other our hearts will reside

I won’t see you grow old my love
Neither you will ever count my wrinkles
Still we will have prayers on our lips always
To guide us as the star that twinkles

Will forever feel the warmth of your hands
Holding me through thick and thin
Your sweet nothings in my ears
And all those love songs Whispering in

We will not meet again my love
And the loneliness of hearts knows no cures
But in dreams and with open eyes
We will always say “Eternally yours”

Autumn

Autumn has arrived
The air is crisp and dry
Leaves are falling by the side
And there is no one left to cry
The flowers which blossomed once
And covered the earth with fire
Have all long withered away
No fruit any longer to sire
No rain comes today
No sunshine to make it bright
No laughter in the air around
No hearts full of light
The white flowers which draped the trees once
Are all but gone far away
Wind taking away those memories
No matter how hard we pay

Butterfly..

A light descends on earth
To form the shape of time unknown
To slide on the rainbow of eternity
To mark the universe as its own

The cocoon just hangs in there
With the slightest hint of strength
Beaten and weathered by the wind and the rain
It appears nothing but life wearing out by a tenth

Rain stops and storms tires out
Sunshine makes every poppy bloom
A heart still beats within the cocoon
For courage and perseverance there’s plenty a room

Blue and Purple, White and Yellow
Hues of rainbow emerge and spread
The tiny fluttering of tender wings
Ready to fly on a carpet of red

It’s beautiful, Nature exclaims
And the wonder of life unfolds
Out of the gray shadows of despair and gloom
Emerges the preciousness untold

What If!!

What if we stayed
What if we had time
Many more years of togetherness
And many more laughter to chime
What if i smiled and he understood
That it was he who i think about
What if he looked at me so
That gone would be any doubts
What if we were young and happy
Basking in the sunshine on us
What if we were bit more patient
And a little less presumptuous

Laughter and Forgetting

How I would love to forget
The tinkle of our laughter
The sparks in our eyes
The lightness of our hearts

It is the skip of my heartbeat I would like to forget
When I heard your voice calling my name
It is the silent longing for you I would like to forget
Waiting for you to come through the doors

The scent of our passionate night
Wafting through the morning air
The taste of your lips on mine
How much I would like to forget

The reassuring warmth of your arms around me
Your heart-stopping smile when you looked at me
The laughter you brought to me
How much I wish to forget it all

The hours spent arguing about things
The sudden anger and loving requests
Your touch caressing my tassles
How much I would wish to forget

I would like to forget the words spoken
The promises unkept and dreams broken
The unsaid vows that were taken
For the soul to be left vacant

From my memory and yours
The image of us being together ever
Wiped away the laughter and welcome the forgetting

Nothingness...

Is it fair or dark?
Is it big or small?
Is it hard or soft.. or I can touch it at all..


I stand here clutching air
Which empties me and I feel breathless
While it thickens around and chokes me..

 I struggle..
 Tears roll on my cheeks
I want to break free..
And suddenly I am.

I can feel Nothingness...

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Open up..

What is it that defines me in one word? Is it "Stubborn" or "Strong" or "Sensitive" or anything else?? Well.. I think the only one word that I believe to be me is "Opening up".. it is not an adjective .. its a verb that describes me..

Open Up..

When I feel lonely .. All I have to do is Open up to company
When I am sad .. I open up to happiness all around
When I am angry I open up to calmness in nature
When I am restless I open up to peace in me.


Friday, May 30, 2014

Longing

In the lingering of gaze a moment longer
In a smile that brightens the day
In a touch that is accidental
And words that cause a blush

Longing for you

Melting chocolates and icy beer
Loud music and crowded streets
Watery sunsets and endless dreams
And then the dive into unknown

Longing for you




Sunday, May 18, 2014

2014 elections and next 5 years

It has been exciting 6 months in the political arena of Indian democracy. We have witnessed something unprecedented in the chaos of state as well as national elections. I would like to analyze how the scene unfolded and what it means to me as a middle class urban citizen of the nation.

First let me talk a bit about how I view politics. I always believed that people who didn't vote, didn't take some action to change things, didn't voice their concerns at some kind of forums, however small that might be, have no right to criticize the way we are governed - this category included me. I have been unable to vote because of the nature of my job which entails spending moderately long periods across multiple cities and my laziness to undergo the voter registration processes at all these places again and again. Despite my inaction, I wanted to be a part of the change. Yes, that's an admission of my fault.. and I am guilty of being a hypocrite but my hope from the political process was high.

People of India are fed up of living in a poor, ill-governed state while we witness better places in the world. We do not wish to remain a country identified by the characters of "Slumdog Millionaire" and the youth of today is not longer a silent group. The social media revolution has given all of us a channel to project our thoughts, share it and have open discussion/ debate or even very opinionated arguments over the net. Smart phone revolution has brought a large chunk of our society into sharing information/ thoughts over tools like twitter and watsapp.

The discontent in Indian middle class has been on for long, but we witnessed it in much stronger way when Anna Hazare led a movement for Jan Lokpal Bill. Normal people like you and me participated.. lend our voices to the chants of "We have had too much". And then Nirbhaya happened. Men and Women all came in hordes to protest, to demand safety, to demand our basic rights.

Then AAP happened. These days people give way less credit to AAP than it deserves. Yes, AAP made some wrong political and strategic decisions. Yes, it has people who talk much more than they deliver. Yes, AAP is involved more in activism than Politics and governance.. yet none of us can deny the fact that AAP made us believe in us once more. Delhi was caught in the AAP frenzy not just because of Congress incumbency but also because we desperately wanted an alternative to being made a fool by two largest political parties. We realized that people - you and me CAN bring a change, if not at national level.. definitely at local and state level. And we voted as never before. Never in the political history of India, just one year old party could make a government at the state level. WE, THE PEOPLE made it happen.And we did it because AAP showed us the way.

Now let's talk about Congress for a while. The most revered party at one time, is now at its weakest ever.. Have they really done their worst job in last 65 years or so? Or is it, we are also at our most vocal, most aware selves and want more from the governing parties? In my opinion, congress went wrong on few fronts :
a) Choice of leadership : Rahul Gandhi has never been accepted by people of India as a deserving leader of Congress. We as Indians, are fond of dynastic rules - no doubt about it. But Congress failed to see that today we have more youths than ever before. We do not go by blind tradition any more.. we question.. we criticize.. we demand. And we want someone who can show his capability in running one of the toughest governance structure. Agree or not Rahul Gandhi was NEVER perceived as one who can deliver. Just promoting him as the PM candidate wouldn't have helped anyways.

b) Economic Conditions : Congress in its blind ambition to remain in power, did not give enough focus to the deteriorating conditions of economy. What happened to India Shining.. to 8-9% GDP growth.. to Infrastructure development? As a nation, we are no longer content with subsidies, with alms. When we were recognized as a rapidly developing nation with a potential to become super power, we felt proud. And a proud nation doesn't accept alms.. even if from their own government. Congress failed to link the changing psychology of people with the economic downturn.

c) Inability to manage the coalition : Due to lack of a strong PM, Congress did not have very strong hold over its alliance partners and their activities. Increasing greed among partners to squeeze the nation of wealth to line their own coffers while the rule lasts, proved to be quite fatal for congress.

There would be many more reasons for Congress dismal failure, but tired and angry people can vent out their frustration in most brutal fashion - Congress has learnt it now. It has also sent a signal to any party, be it the current ruling one that Indian Junta is no longer forgiving. We want better governance, better economy, better place to live not as charity but as out rights. This has been the most profound change that has happened within us.

Now let us talk abt Modi - a stern task master and a strategist. Modi having worked as a pracharak for so long, and having delivered in Gujarat, knows how to connect with people. He knew he can project himself as the stronger, action taking PM candidate and he did that. He knew India is a democracy and though we do get emotional over mandir and masjid, we do not like the killing that does with it. We know that its us who suffers in the end. He managed his entire campaign very professionally. We witnessed a leader who promised development, at times stirred controversy a little, but most of all gave us hope for a change we so desperately crave. He involved professionals, never shied away from ambition and we accepted that as people we are changing. We do not shy away from ambition in our professional lives, so why should a politician not have ambition in his profession. That way, we can always demand from him and not rely on him for his so called "Social Service".

And now, after putting Modi in his desired place.. we demand the following:

1) Be just and fair - to every citizen of India. We do not want you to be a dictator who can get away with snoopgate or fake encounters or Godhra if you were ever involved in any of these.
2) Be a tough task master - we have languished in last decade because no one held people at the top accountable for their actions. We want accountability and you to drive results.
3) Bring economy back on track - yes, we know it is going to be a tough task.. but we know nothing is unachievable we all try.. and you being the leader are the one who can lead this.
4) Improve Infrastructure and general facilities available to us. We need electricity, law & order, infrastructure and a free way to build our lives. You being an entrepreneur know the best that you give us all this and we will take care of ourselves.
5) Deliver on your promise and keep nonsensical characters in your party in check. We agree every party has their own sets of insensitive people but we do not wish to go back 50 years.. economically or even socially. We as a society are one of the most tolerant and progressive lot. Help us improve upon ourselves.

Now it is upto Mr. Modi to deliver on our demands.. make us proud Indians. We can demands because we have given him mandate to govern us.. the people of the biggest democracy of the world...

Jai Hind!!!

My ramblings

Yes.. I might come across as a self centered person.. who I anyways claim to be :). No Apologies there..

And in this regard I resolve to publish some of my works over time... some dark.. some hopeful.. some with tears and some with laughter..

As a person I have come a long long way in last few years.. realizing my shortcoming in ways I never did before.. coming face to face with my strength when i thought none existed.. falling in love with life all over again.. everyday.. it is one heck of a lifetime.. I can definitely tell that.


I am starting with one of my favourite pieces I wrote:

BUTTERFLY

Fly!!
A light descends on earth
To form the shape of time unknown
To slide on the rainbow of eternity
To mark the universe as its own

The cocoon just hangs in there
With the slightest hint of strength
Beaten and weathered by the wind and the rain
It appears nothing but life wearing out by a tenth

Rain stops and storms tires out
Sunshine makes every poppy bloom
A heart still beats within the cocoon
For courage and perseverance there's plenty a room

Blue and Purple, White and Yellow
Hues of rainbow emerge and spread
The tiny fluttering of tender wings
Ready to fly on a carpet of red

It's beautiful, Nature exclaims
And the wonder of life unfolds
Out of the gray shadows of despair and gloom
Emerges the preciousness untold

Blue







Blue was facing the sky
In  a defiant gesture of pride
"You are so vast and blue,
Yet I match you and splendor and some more", she said.

The sky laughed and looked down upon
Blue stood her ground
The mockery and insults were rained down upon her
Yet she swayed in the gust of wind

And then.. a cloud cast its pall
The Sky turned a gloomy grey
Blue smiled and cried to the sky
I am always who I am.. I am BLUE...


Saturday, March 1, 2014

I dream a dream..




I dream a dream..
Of thousand roses
A lush field of perfume
Igniting the senses

I dream a dream..
Of endless stretch of sand
An expanse of nothingness
Filling in the silence

I dream a dream..
Of love and of songs
A heart filled with joy
Skipping beats at times

I dream a dream..
Of thorns and rocks
A path not very easy
And I smell the perfume

I dream a .......

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Black and White




Lined with silver and enveloped in black
Can it be the negative print of this moment?
Washed with red dye and blue hued poured over
Blossomed into the rainbow so potent.