For the first time in my blog, i am going to write about myself and not just my reflections. I was someone else for the larger part of my life and changed to someone else few years ago. I dont know how or when it happened. I felt trapped and inspite of wanting things to go differently, never did something to make it happen. I lost a part of me. I lost my free spirit, my humility, my confidence and most of all my innate nature to be myself. I can very well blame circumstances and get away with it, but i wont. Thats just not me.
Of all days, yesterday i suddenly realised what i was missing all these times. I was too bitter to let things go. THAT was the key... I needed to LET GO. My teacher and guide always told me to be a witness and let things go. It was me who agreed in theory but now i realise what it means to put it in practice. I can say its tough and easy at the same time. Tough because you have to work hard to realise it and easy coz once u have realised it, it takes an instant to follow it.
I hope and would definitely work to keep this understanding with me. I took a small step by letting things go which i had kept with me for years. I asked sorry from a person whom it was hardest to forgive and forget. Now i am free of my past and future. Only present remains with me and its a wonderful feeling.
Wish all of us could go through this experience once in life.
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